Have you ever said something you regret only dreaming you could take it back? Or looked back at a time wondering why you thought a certain way? I have, and that's 2 of the many reasons why I've never shared the fact that I had a blog. It also explains why I've only 'published' 4 entries in 2 1/2 years. But it's not about me, and now I have motives. We're trying to create a respite house inspired by Matt. (www.mattshouse.ca) And I need to get the word out. I'm told I need to start to tweet, so I suppose that is coming soon too.

We've teamed with Canuck Place and Abbotsford Hospice to create what will be called 'Campus of Care'. The city of Abbotsford has granted us a 99 year land lease near the hospital to build the 3 buildings. (much gratitude to Ken Voth for making that happen!) Now we need to build, which requires funds. This need brings me to mention some very dear and talented friends who have joined with us to start a gala committee. Fundraising here we come. Our potential date is September 11, and we want it to be fabulous. The best gala Abbotsford has ever seen. Dream big, right! So far I've got some pretty fabulous people on my side, I know it can be done. We need entertainment. Someone big, someone famous, someone fabulous and I need connections, so that's my plea! (who do you know that know so and so?)

True story, and why I'm not afraid to dream big:

'Good things come to those who wait', Patience is a virtue', 'don't settle for the cubic zirconia when there's a diamond waiting' (Seriously on the last one, my mom's encouragement when we dated a guy she didn't like!) These statements have been drilled into me since I was a little girl. (thanks mom). Sometimes I'm not so happy about it. We're hoping to build a house soon, we have the plans! We have the land! Timing isn't right husband says, so I wait. No big deal. I want Matt to be better. I want God to heal him miraculously. I have pleaded for that for nearly 10 years. So far I still wait.... a much bigger deal. Want to know something, I may never build a house, I may never see my son healed on this side of heaven but I have all the confidence in the world that someOne much bigger than me has some pretty spectacular plans for my life. One day when I had spent too many days being discouraged I sat on the edge of my bed and prayed that whatever page I opened my bible to would give me words to live by. I said this with very little faith but tremendous hope. Want to know what I read? "Be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told." Wow! you can bet I wrote that on a piece of paper and posted it where I can read it everyday. I'm dreaming (and planning) big!

I'll write again sooner as I pray for the words to share and for the audience to come. It makes me feel so vulnerable but this cause is worth that to me.