6.29.2011

How many children do i have?

I have 3 kids. Matt, Mya and Hudsen ages 10, 8 and 6 at the moment. Trouble is, I can only see 2. I can only talk to 2 and I can only hug 2. So what do I tell people who ask? The question comes up all of the time.  I pause every time and still don't know the best way to answer.
My dad says he has 11 grandchildren, (my brother has 5, my sister has 3) then he shows his favorite picture of Matthew (his screen photo on his blackberry) and says to people "this one is in heaven". Twice in the last month I have met people who ask how old my children are. (8 and 6)Then we talk and they ask how long Doug and I have been married. Then they say, you waited awhile to children! Nope, "actually we didn't, we had a son in 2000 who died when he was 9". Silence.....
I talked to my dad about it. He said "You have 3 children, just one doesn't live with you."
I don't want to be dramatic, I don't want to make people feel uncomfortable but how can I leave Matt out?
I have 3 children. Just one doesn't live with me, he lives in heaven.





1 comment:

Candice said...

This touched me. You will always have 3 children. People just won't be able to see Matt until they get up into Heaven. Many have been blessed by being able to meet him in his short life and others will be meeting him once they are up in Heaven. I didn't get to see him often, but he's still as special in Heaven as he was when he was on earth with us! Love you guys xo